sigh. i woke up late again. 1.30 pm. something wrong with me. always wake up so late. so to me it seems like the day pass by so quickly, practically because i always waste half a day. sigh.. lost count of the times i go down to the kitchen and eat my lunch straight. grandmother will walk past me and say " haiz, wake up so late again. hahahaha." YES, she laughs. then if i drink soft drink worse. she would say " ah yo, first air con now soft drink. haiz." haha. in chinese its leng qi and leng sui *shui?* so it kinda sound funny when she said it. haha. yup

today training was tiring. one of the more tiring ones for me. don know why. hamstring was still feeling tight from saturday's training. then coach tell us go do a long run, jia luck lo. if u were in east coast park and u saw a few boys in victoria singlets, im one of them! yeesh, i train in the victoria jersey even though im not a student there anymore. cos its comforty, and i have to train in a singlet. habit. find it easier to move my upper body. then we did weights, and i had to endure coach calling me weak again. haiz. still not there yet. irritating. sit ups, jumps. then we finished training, of course only after cool down. plaed basketball too. haha. was fun. but got this sec 2 boi who was talking alot. irritate me. but i was in a good mood, so it didnt really matter. just a irritating boi, its alright. :)

tomorrow will be training in vs again. cos this week there wil be no sa training until sat. sajc track and field chalet is on the wednesday. so im going. cant expect me to don go, i will be some anti-social person. even though i will miss two days of training probably. haha. im crazy

today for dinner, my maid cooked beef. we dont realli eat beef in this family at home. only outside. so it was a change. i was making it a point to eat as much beef and pork as possible. because its high in protein and helps to build mass. hopefully, can build more muscles. i was puting so much into my mouth, that i was like gagging at times. hah. shld have eat slowly. yup.

plaed piano then continue filing stuff. i filed finish physics, econs, and half of chem. hopefully by tomorrow i can finish everything.. going to set alarm to wake up early. not because im anxious to file stuff. but because i don want to waste another half day. haha yup.

just now when i was in my room using the computer, i suddenly heard my grandmother make some noises. it was like weak groans. i turned behind and saw that she was still sleeping. turns out that she was having a nightmare. woke her up so that she stop having them, then she went back to sleep. luckily she stop having them. was wondering what the nightmare could have been. the fact that two of her sons have already pass away before her? or something that i don know about her. just wonders.

i was kinda pissed and sad today. not going to say wad. but just feel that i am wasting time, money and efforts. so i think i cant be bothered already. i already have enough worries with hw, training and packing my messed up room. its just that i realli was interested. haha. don know la. i sound like a weirdo. grrr.

brother is coming back tomorrow. not sure wad time is the flight though. will have training so if its afternoon don think i can pick him up. if its nite, maybe will accompany parents to fetch him. haha. even though im so lazy that i wish he take a cab home himself. grr, so lazy.

hearing the song mockingbird by eminem right now. find it a sad song, now i feel super sad. thinking abt how i feel so " ". grr.. this sucks. maybe i shld just sleep to forget abt everything.

wad a weird entry.

" now hush little baby don't u cry, ......"

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